Super 感觸 post

Had a fantastic dinner with the gals today at Swensen's. The easy banter we had is still evident, and even though we only meet up like once in how long, but we never did lose the super friendship we had and have :) I was so glad we got to meet up in the end! Even though it was after ALOT, alot of miscommunication lol. Updated each other about a lot of stuff, and also told them some stuff that I never meant to say. Lol. Don't know what I was thinking ya. But just thought I should at least tell someone bout it.. You guys are the only people to know!!!!! Then again, there are a lot of details that I think I never elaborate on, haha. Forgot to mention them =.=

But it also left me feeling very unsettled. Thought more bout it than I should.. Feeling very weirded now. I hadn't started talking bout it to expect to end up feeling this way =.= Ok lor. We shall see how it goes. Haha.

Fyi, it's really damn hard to get me to tell something/anything like that. Haha.

Something else that left a deep impression on me was that Hafi mentioned that some of her friends are married or are going to marry. Like ?! Wow. We are nearly the same age?! So we were talking bout how marriage comes at this point of time, then she said that she would like to get married 2 yrs after graduation.. Which brought me to realize that maybe this phase of life is not too far off to start thinking bout now.. BUT THEN.

Got no one how to think about anything? Haha! I told her I don't want to start thinking bout all these until I can actually see something like this happening aka there's like, at least SOMEONE. Lol. Then she actually suggested online dating!!!! I was wow-ed. Lols. That came up because I was telling her I already don't have much chances to actually meet new people.. Since I have no permanent workplace yet, and I don't go socializing around like, much at all. But I was rather surprised, because it doesn't seem like she would suggest something like that, but apparently I was totally wrong because she was totally fine with it.

My bottomline is, I would never accept something like that. Think I am a super introvert. I am ok with being very friendly and chatty msn, or online, or sms and stuff, but ultimately, if I'm gonna meet a total stranger face to face, I think I will just shut up -.- It takes just a while to become a hi bye friend to me, but to become a really close friend, it takes more than just normal interaction I guess.

Which is why I might broach this topic when I'm doing up an entry, but I will never start something like this in real life, because it's just not me to start blabbering out what I'm really thinking. This entry might as well be the closest anyone can get to my heart. Hahahaha =D

And then again, I am always very melancholic when I realize my attached friends are moving away from me because their partner takes the top priority after the status change :( It's not something I can prevent, because everyone is different, so I can only accept and try to deal with it. Apparently there's nothing much I can do if I try to still maintain the friendship the way it was but in the end the other side does nothing right? Haha. So.. If there's ever someone, the topmost criteria must be that I must have my own friendship freedom and he can never dictate who I should or should not go out with, because I have definitely as many good guy friends as good girl friends, :)

So yea, I concluded that I might be single all my life. Haha!!! But hell no, I don't want that. I want to get married. LOL. How ironic.

Looking forward to meeting again on 14th Jan :)

Yummy post!

Lol I like the header for my private blog. Randomness!!!

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This is a foodie post!!

The first day I got my N85, we went for fish and co. Big big hole in that particular pocket :s

That Tuesday when we met a very depressed Junhong. This was dinner. Yummy!!

When I met Valerie for lunch at Suntec before proceeding to bookfest. This is quite deli and guess what?!?! It's only $5.90+ ! Ok it doesn't seem so worth it right.. But check out the next photo.

These are free flow lah. What else can you ask for. Hahaha. :) The shop name is called Just Noodles!

Yes I know this is a piece of paper. But this was the receipt from last sunday's brunch. I like Canton Kitchen!! Nice food and nice time with family. Free food also counts. Haha!!

The Monday I was ultra bored and Stephanie came over to hand me a muffin. Damn nice. :)

From spinelli's: Potato and Onion Tart. Woah it looked soooooo tantalizing that I just had to get it!

The cup of fruits selling at office for 50 cents every thursday.

C'est tout, guys! Stop drooling, now. :)

Responsibility

Everyone has to take some kind of responsibility sooner or later. Some may take it earlier than others, some has lighter responsibility, but nonetheless, any kind of responsibility is important.

I took up some responsibility several years back, and I can put them down already. After the responsibility is put down, a new kind of responsibility surfaces: On how to ensure that everything still runs smoothly.

I'll admit I'm a freaking big worrier, often mulling too much over stuff. It's the most subconscious kind, until I don't even know what I'm worrying over until days later when it hits me.

It's time to learn to relax and leave them be.

JJ Party 3!

was fab =D

We met up quite early to have dinner and to go queue up like any other normal fan. But that was before I realize we were actually getting VIP seats. =D Kudos to auntie Billie for that!  I don't know where she and Xiaojiu sat in the end, but it must have been pretty far away. VIP seats are SHIOKNESS lah.. We sat at the 3rd row from the stage. Didn't feel like sitting first row, was thinking maybe front seats are really too front to capture a good part of the stage. Yes, we actually had a CHOICE of whether we wanted front row seats or not. =D

These are the people on my right.

AND these are the people on my left, to whom I owe the VIP tickets to. 

VIP tickets leh..

Performing for us

I super, duper, super, duper like this photo. :)

The rest of the photos are up on facebook, and videos will be up if I ever manage to put them up on youtube. =D

The first video I went up in front to take, and I like the stunt he pulled bout playing the piano and switching it to the recording. Of coz, and also the fact that he came down and shook our hands =D I like the dancers as well!! They are SOOO cool.

AND HE LOOKED INTO MY CAMERA. Coolness. This is my fave vid =D

我還想她. I ♥

小酒窩 solo version

Ending off the whole jj party..

A day of home-ness

This dog is really cute!!! It's slippery on floors.

This is a day where nothing will convince me to go out lol. I spent like 2 hrs in TM shopping for the cake and presents!! Ok 1 1/2hrs. Damn speed shopping. But whatever. It was nice having such gatherings from time to time.

Happy birthday mummy and Vivian =D

The results of today's shopping. Still got one more bill not credited in. Scary... :( Money-less!!

First entry with my phone!

I switched off the com and thought I wanted to blog, so i tried using the phone to come here. I like my new track shoes! Can run very comfortably in them. Heh. And they are still in one piece. Lol. Happy! Alright. Time to go to bed.

A little addicted to running haha

JJ World Tour 2009 - 28th March 2009

Uhh. Anyone wants to offer me this as a very early birthday present? Haha! In 2006 I got the tickets real late (real late means like that very morning on the day of the concert -.-), so I sat at this very weird place even though it was the 1st category. This time I must buy earlier!!! 

I want to go!!! 

Being spoiled, or no?

Been pondering over this for quite a long time.

The essential question is, am I spoiled? 

I would like to think that the answer is no. But who knows, perhaps I'm in self denial. Haha. 

It's true that I am not the youngest in my immediate family. Oh come on guys, come off it. You know that being the youngest is usually spoiled by the family. Usually. Not always. :) It's true that I have a younger brother, and I do think that he receives more attention than I do, for a various number of reasons. Rationally speaking now (instead of a week or two earlier when I was really miffed haha), I don't really have many issues for my parents to place enough attention on me. My brother, on the other hand, definitely had more issues. For one thing, my studies were always slightly better than his, and his primary school studies were definitely part of the issues. For another, I mix around too often with my friends whereas he doesn't even go out, which was definitely worrying. And also, I think his temper was worse than mine when we were both younger. So in the immediate family, I don't think I am. My dad will buy us stuff, but he can also be firm in not wasting unnecessary money. Which is of course, essential since we were not rich in the first place. Maybe part of my non-branded fondness comes from the family haha.

And then I come to the part of the extended family. I think I am.. To a certain extent. My cousins from my mum's side, most of them are older than me by 2 yrs or more.. Except for Terence, who came out much later haha. So when we used to play together, everyone of them will take care of me (just imagine a bunch of 6 to 10 yrs old with a 4yr old kid. Surely you will take better care of that 4yr old kid.) Haha. What times. I still remember I can 陷害 my cousin by pretending to want to cry so he will give in to me, coerced by the other cousins when they thought he was bullying me :] - Fyi, when I was 4 my brother was 1 so there isn't another kid smaller than me who could play and required more attention than me lols.

Kid times were fun times lah.

Then we all grew up, and of course we don't play around literally with each other anymore so I think my brother never really had a lot of fun playing times with my extended family, maybe hence he turned to the computer for all his playing needs :s The age gap between my brother and the rest of my cousins is really like 5 yrs old at least, so ya. We call each other by names, but my brother had to call them jiejie and korkor and they all call my brother didi. Obvious age gap, isn't it?

But I digress.

So we grew up, and the cousins who were much older than me got married and had kids. I remembered my first niece is now.. 10 yrs old? I can't remember the exact age, but ya. I was an auntie at like age 10 or something -.- Then of course, the new baby always receives the attention, so gradually, my batch of cousins became care-bearers for the nieces and nephews to come. No time to be actually spoiled because the niece and nephew are always more spoiled than us!

So that's the end of the relatives part. Noneed to mention my dad's side because I am the loner there.. My cousins are all like at least 8 yrs older or 8 yrs younger, so no one to really spoil me because the 8yr older cousins are never present :s Don't really mingle with the adults. I became the nanny for all the cousins there, literally nanny. Haha. Went over to my aunts' houses to take care of them de lor.

In school, I am an equal with my peers, so naturally no one to take care of, and no one to spoil me.

In work, I'm always kinda the temp aka quite young so the colleagues take care of me a lot.

In PA... It's different. When I first got in, I wasn't that old, but I wasn't that young either. Plenty of kids in PA, and I was a near transparent thing when I first got in. Maybe only the dizi people takes care of me or notices me, but then again, there's always Kaixiang who is like younger and garners more attention haha!

Then we all grew up, and the older ones left us.. Suddenly I became one of the oldest there for some reason. And because I'm the only one in my batch, there was no one to be "old" with me. Haha. Then there was this need to take care of all my members, and it was a time of totally being bullied instead of being spoiled lah. Haha far from it. 

Conclusion? 

Has the potential to be spoiled, but due to circumstances, no chance to be. Haha! Please spoil me, people!

But at least I've nv really had a hard life before.. That in itself, is a kind of blessing already :)

Changed?

I've been fiddling with the idea of changing hosts for some time.

It's not that I despise xanga now that my premium is over, haha. I created this even before the premium was over. Guess I just need a change of environment. And it's not like I've nv blogged with blogger before. The feeling was ok, so I switched. Hahaha. Maybe my next host shall be wordpress.

Oops a little too early for thinking of the next host isn't it? :b

New blog. New start. New feelings. :)

Hello blogger, byebye xanga.