Driver

Finally the time has come where everyone has some need and therefore I've got no choice but to drive. Seriously, having the car is really totally 弊多於利。變成了車的傀儡！！Not to mention the little inconveniences actually add up to, in my own sense, overcome the conveniences. Oh well.. It's got to start somewhere I guess.

Doesn't help when I happen to have a mind for negative comments, and the few times I drove since 2 yrs ago was full of 'em? Slow (60 kmph), fast (STILL 60 kmph), tortoise, please cut the lanes and not stay in the same lane, don't turn so widely, being CMI at parking, yada yada. Eh hello, no licence also can say one hor. Don't play play.

And you wonder why I don't drive.

Presentations karma

Back in 2005, I chose Chemistry for a few reasons. 

1) Between Science and Accountancy, I was more interested in Science.

2) Between Science and Accountancy, Science has got less presentations to do. I had a cousin in Accountancy, so I roughly knew all the horror stories.
3) I liked the NUS environment way more than the NTU environment.

4) In Science, I can't do Physics, Life Sciences, Computing, so it was up to Maths or Chemistry. Chemistry was more interesting lah even though my A level maths were way better than Chemistry. 

All the presentations that I managed to skip during uni times are coming back to haunt me. In the span of 3 yrs in NUS, I officially did.. 2 presentations. I think. One for GEK1537 (I think it's obsolete now) and one for Biomolecules. And one viva for CM3292. Two French plays. Not counting all the oral exams for French and in Switzerland, of course.

In the span of one year here, I've conducted 3 briefings (with different slides each time) and hosted one forum. That's nearly equivalent to what I did for the 3 years!!

Strangely, I'm starting to get used to it. At least I don't see my hands trembling like mad as before! (or maybe I've been sitting down the past 2 times conducting the briefing hence it was not obvious).

I guess it's a good thing and I'm glad I'm slowly overcoming this very lousy part of me in work!

說什麽都得先考慮一下

很久沒有口無遮攔的時刻了。

長大了，說什麽事情都會先考慮，三思，分析。考慮看說了會不會有什麽不良的結果，三思，說了以後會不會對別人造成影響，分析這些資料是不是不該讓每個人知道，知道了會有什麽後果。

好累喔。

就連最芝麻綠豆的小事，也不說。最阻攔我的，應該是自私的怕說了之後反而造成自己的不便。對這麽一個時固執，時隨性的人，真得很糟糕。

僞裝的殼，太多層了，應該忘記怎麽掀下它們了吧。反正也太習慣了，帶着也沒怎樣。PS 男看太多了啦。夏和傑的

“毒舌是爲了保護自己；囂張是害怕別人看不起我；自大因爲自卑；花心因爲害怕付出真心遭到拒絕；自戀因爲沒自信；假文藝是害怕被人家發現我平凡普通”

還真夠貼心的。

在多的話也講不出來啦。

Having no $$ is really just a priority and perspective thing

I'll admit, I am always saying I'm broke.

But that is really just a matter of relativity, perspective or priority.

I'm broke, compared to xxx;
I'm broke because I spent so much this month; or
I'm broke because I don't care enough to spend this $$ on this thing.

OR the one I'm 90% at:

I'm broke because I want to save more $$.

Seldom are people really, really broke, like 10 cents left in the account. Seldom, not never. At least, never me. It's really a sign of poor $$ management and prioritization when it boils down to just 10 cents.

So when you say you're broke, which is it?

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1

Harry Potter was awesome. =)) So glad I managed to catch it on the first day! So glad I bought tickets way beforehand and got fantastic seats. 

As usual, it couldn't follow the book 100% else it would bore the readers to death with its minute details (not for a fanatic, though), and the depth of the book is always compromised for the sake of non book followers. But there are a lot of awfully exciting scenes - I jumped at a few, in fact. Gosh, if the movie had been made in 3D, I'll be jumping in my seat half the time! The splitting of the movie is of course, needless to say, fantastic since many more intricate details are being brought out. 

The ending of the movie stopped at a good cliff too - something that gives an ending to this part of the book and a foreboding sense of what is to come next. I can't wait for HP and the Deathly Hallows Part 2 in July 2011!! If I thought the last movie was good, this movie is way better. Awesomeeeeee. Can't get enough of it!

First sign of getting old

Sleeping at 11pm on a Friday night; waking up automatically at 7plus on a Saturday morning. OMG. And it's not even the wake-up-feeling-refreshed kind, it's more of I-woke-up-because-I-slept-too-many-hours kind. @_@ Getting old.. OLD.

I guess since it's not too far from the usual time I wake up during weekdays, my body volunteered me for a Saturday morning shift of work -.-" Need to finish the newsletter by Sunday night! And hopefully this will be as good as the previous one, with MINIMAL changes!!

Yes lah, Harry Potter here I come on 17th Nov :)

The one week break is over!?

Shucks, and emails are piling up..!! Lots to do when I get back to office tomorrow. Strange how it is that when I'm not in the office emails come in torrents, but when I'm in the office it's relatively quiet -.-"

The past week of not going into office has been rather therapeutic :D Sleeping till 7plus everyday, and getting off at 4plus 5 everyday. I even had time to reach home before 6 and go for a run!! But alas, it's the last course for the year, and looking at my training hours I really think I ought to save some courses for next year :\

Nevertheless, I am looking forward to going back office (even though I will miss going home at 4.30pm!) and meeting up with the rest of my colleagues! And D&D is next week!! So fast =)

Before that, loads of work to clear.. OMG what happened to the newsletter I wanted to work on for the past week!

I must remember to bring everything back into office tomorrow!

Tired to the maximum?!?!

Mahjong until 6 then sleep; waking up directly to go for kickboxing; acting foolish and walked home thereafter, without any food of some sort, = crazy. Lol. I don't think I will try this combination of actions for some time to come.. :s

Tired ah!

Meanwhile, after a couple of days of weird food for meals, I am now craving for frolick!! Should have walked to T1 to get just now.. Aiyah. 

Second fiddles

I did a search for the term "second fiddle" and I couldn't get anything much other than the definition, which I already know, and probably not just in name.

second fiddle
noun
Informal

1. A secondary role.
2. One who plays a secondary role.

- source: yourdictionary.com

And so everyone is a second fiddle to everyone in some kind of the world, simply because it is never because so that everyone takes you as the first priority in life. 

I never got the difference between angry, irritated, or resigned whenever I got second fiddled. Indifference, I can get. It's a very simple explanation for being indifferent; either I don't really care, or I care too much and it's time to hide. Angry because it's one time too many, irritated because no one else seems to care, resigned because that's just that, there's nothing one can do about it?

Shrugs.

And thus I am setting upself up for second fiddling yet again. I suppose it's really 本性難改。Tell myself to 看開一點 and everything will be alright (:

It's November!

I haven't logged in the entire week. 

Too many surprises springing out at work, too tired at home, too lazy during train trips. So there.. 

But it's the official weekend!! Lol quite shiok to be not in office for an entire week!! PSIP was not bad, made new friends and partially rather interesting programme. 

Am going to enjoy the weekend before going back to course on Monday and Tuesday.. :) 

Now, back to clearing work.. -.-"