Angsty

And I must split this into two posts for I do not want to taint the other post. Besides, by the time I finish this it will probably go into the next day. That much that I am angsty about. I think the heat of elections has not done much to help :(

I just feel like cutting a certain person's brain and pull all the brain cells to link together!!!

That aside, another someone has made me feel that the length of time does not matter anymore; whether it is one day, or a month, or even a year. The level of bo chup-ness is highly disturbing. But it's ok, I have thoroughly given up.

Angsty, angsty. And I must stay away from too full + milk. Seriously.

Too angsty to sleep so early leh.

Finally a non-apathetic

Frankly speaking, I've always been apathetic towards politics. As long as I live my life and no one disturbs my equilibrium I will be happy with whoever is in power. Like who cares, right?

Until the power to vote and the heat of the elections has warmed every Singaporean up, including me. That one tiny vote suddenly becomes so precious; you are

1) voting for who you will be seeing for the next few years

2) voting for the next generation of leaders

3) voting for the people that you support.

It is not that I have a firm stand of who I should believe in, or whose beliefs resonate with mine. I believe in the sheer fact that no party can be perfect, just like no system can be perfect. It is about how to manage the flaws rather than pretend they did not happen.

And so listening to the political broadcasts and rally tweets, I can't help but post some comments on twitter/facebook on those ideas I think are crap, and those that I think are sound. But everyone's perspective is different, and hence the different supporters for the different parties. 

I can't deny that they have not done everything well. But I also can't deny that there are a lot of things done well. Whilst some people genuinely believe that the party's mottos are to support for, some people are simply.. Going with the flow.

And these are the people that I do not like. Being apathetic and going with the flow are two different things. 

And I am but another small small Singaporean whose vote will count for come May 7. :)

It's been a nice night out

Even though I wasn't very communicative till later;

Even though I was a lil' apprehensive;

Even that I talked to everyone;

Though I still controlled myself pretty well :)

I think it will be a good night's sleep tonight.

Managing expectations (II)

And perhaps if someone doesn't intend to continue on something when the expectation is raised, then my advice would be, to not raise it in the first place. There's no need for the rise and fall of emotions when something is not replied to or when someone doesn't intend to reply, ain't it? Or perhaps there is too much fun to waylaid the original intentions, but that cannot be an excuse for anything.

Or perhaps I am just being oversensitive as usual. 

Or maybe I should be the one to lower my expectations and not expect everyone to be like me.

Or maybe I am the only one and unique Aunt Agony amongst the people I know so the rest cannot be.

I'm sorry

It's probably been AGES since I last blogged 3 times in a day (or was it never?) but I guess all I want to say is, sorry that I did what I just did and perhaps what used to happen was to give slight hope to one party while irritating the other party. But from now on, hopefully the other party feel out of sight, out of mind and whilst we may be friends, I must protect my family. 

Move on bah!

Another random flashback

Was alone on the train yesterday and suddenly, this auntie beside me smiled. Out of politeness, I smiled back and continued to stone with my earpiece. Then.. She started talking. Could faintly hear some noise and again, out of politeness, decided to take off my earpiece and listen to what she was saying.

And that was the start of a 10min rambling on her side. Asked me if I live in Bedok (do I have a Bedok face!?!?) and said she lives in Chai Chee.. And that she has to take the train to Bishan to work and she has a lazy colleague. Basically, I knew about her life story in 10min. She was reluctant to get off the train at Bedok and continued to talk even though the doors has opened?

Do I have a "please tell me your life story" or "please complain to me as much as you like" face!?

Very busy tutor

Could have been a school teacher doing his extra duties meeting students on a weekend. But that seems to be exploiting that one cup of Starbucks coffee way too much even. The students came one after another, and I've completely lost count of the students who's come and go, despite sitting right next to the table of tutoring. At least 10? This is like a PW marathon.. o.o

Very happy with my Starbucks pairing this morning.

Officially in love with cocoa cuppachino; tastes even better than mocha/dark mocha/java chips, not that sweet but retain that same level of cocoa ♥

Can't wait for June and USA!

One min before lunch time

Random flash to this morning when I woke up with a heart beat rate of probably around 200.

I must stop dreaming silly non constructive dreams!

Hmm.. What an oxymoron. Constructive dreams. Lol.

Lunch!

The year is moving way too fast

Caught a glimpse of my google calendar while switching tabs just now; realised that Wednesday is already 13 Apr. It's mid Apr without me realising it!! Life passes too fast these days.. Mon-Fri, Fri-Sun, and the cycle continues each week. Fierce. At this rate it will be the end of the year before I know it again! 

I think this also shows how fluid things now are, and how despite the lesser students this year I seem to have lesser time for myself. Slowly finding that balance back in life before I (hopefully) lose it again for 2012 and 2013! 

Yes, I believe 2012 is not the end of the year. -.-"

But before anything else, it's Monday again soon and the start of yet another Mon-Fri. Sleep time!

Operation 打好關係

Succeeded?

But the first questions they ask me were

1) Are you getting married?!

2) Are you leaving service?!

3) Is it your birthday!?

o_o

But that aside, still very thankful to them for what they have done so far.. Or what they have to do for the coming months!

French textbooks vs French

How to learn grammaire like that?!

French textbooks are after all (probably) designed by French. And thus, like French, they have that same element of pride in their language. That pride which will outweigh any other pride, especially towards English speaking people! And that was how the above came about. How to learn grammar like that for a level 1 noob who wants to learn French by himself/herself?? You know, at least my Jap textbook explains itself clearly (in terms of grammar usage), even though the entire textbook is in Japanese. And thus noobs are not suitable for such textbooks!

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Jumped out of bed

@ 9.30 am in the morning feeling not rested because I thought I missed a flight (to somewhere).. What a realistic dream. ...

Let's hope no other flights that I take in this lifetime will be such a scenario!!! Missing it once was BAD enough. :o