End of the week (came early!)

Very, very very glad that I'm on leave tomorrow. Super duper glad, with all the pull and push factors!! Yay I finally have a chance to relax after the crazy March. :)

But for now.. Files and more files first!

Major revamp

Over a couple of things, including the blog as well as updating Friendster (?!?!) I know, it's like, is Friendster even still existent?! But well, I log in for certain reasons. Can't believe I did what I just did, but let's see what happens and if I will eventually get what I want.

Apparently, all these weren't in my mind when I made up my mind over at ah ma hse to come back and study french! And it's now 2.14am. Congratulations. I guess I needed to clear my mind and this kind of nonsensical stuff normally does work in helping the former!

I think the level of innate stress is piling up and whilst I'm glad to have the chance to learn to be more resilient, another part of me is freaking out at the thought of it all and the level of expectations, and the possibility of mismatch of expectations. I would think it's a rather good thing that the workplace is far. Else I might be tempted to be holed up @ the workstation 24/7 just to finish reading ALL the files. Oh man. But it's ok. What does not kill me, makes me stronger. 

And in a flash, March is ending and I guess it's becoming a reality that I'm pushing this year's plans to next yr, and next yr's plans to the year after. I can't say if I'm silly or what, but that's the way I am and that's the way I'll be, don't think I'll be changing anytime soon. I didn't even have the time to stop and think about it the entire month. Or maybe subconsciously I'm really lazy, or I'm really scared. But that's that, for now. Chapter closed.

And whilst one path seems very clear, the rest are all still hazy and I don't wanna think about it and I don't care at least for the time being. Let it come should it come and if it happens, it happens.

加油加油加油

I don't think it was news that anyone of us would have expected to hear. esp when it was supposed to be a happy occasion.. Let's only hope that the kid is fine and everything will sort itself out though I don't exactly know what had happened.

加油!

The boss(es)

And I am ever glad that these two immediate bosses are, well, my immediate bosses. It struck me very deep that boss remembers that I am not too pro-caffeine in the late afternoon and hence bought coke instead of green tea (I know, coke has caffeine too). It was really the thought that counted, the little things that I thought I mentioned in passing but people actually remember.

This kind of gesture probably gets to me more effectively than any other thing.

French class

I've decided to stop procrastinating. Will sign up for French as soon as I've plowed through my old textbooks and to prevent being too broke to sign up!

Complaints - the nature of Singaporeans

When someone complains to me, I watch my behaviour and try my best not to interrupt with my own (perhaps similar) matters, because I think all the complaining party wants is a listening ear. Being very mindful of this, I will purposely stop myself when I catch myself subconsciously doing it. I'm but Singaporean after all.

When you are the listening ear, do you do that or do you not care about the complaining party and go on to vent your frustrations on the person who was hoping to get some relief by talking to you?

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Dear ♥

Thanks for the card! It totally brightened up the night when I came home =) Like I say, it totally came at a correct time.. Hehe.

May our friendship last forever!

Stand by-ing

I've got a very strong feeling that this is time wasted.. Hmmm. Will someone go get him and ask!? :\

The mystery of the tangling and untangling.

As a kid, I've always thought about why things get tangled up. To a kid, it's a very simple logic of if you tangle it in this way, why shouldn't the reverse process be as easy and straightforward?

As an adult, I finally realised (and I think statistics helped) that while there are so many thousand different possibilities and ways of tangling something, there can only be one way of untangling it - by going the exact reverse process.

And that is why things get tangled up so easily, but untangling it becomes so hard. 

To think in my teens I was proud of unveiling such a simple piece of logic!

JJ concert is as usual, ♥

Honestly, were you even expecting any other comments!?

In short, just ♥ and more ♥ .

During the 3 hrs, I totally thought of nothing but the concert. Even forgot Janelle, amongst others. :) The rock element was too good and the atmosphere was too fab!

And the images shown for the encore piece brought back sooooooooooooooooo many memories of previous parties, concerts. Ahh can't wait for the next one!!! 

OMG IT'S NEARLY 4. Time to sleep even when I don't feel like it!

Lunch time on a Friday

The mood change was huge. Good colleagues, nice food, funny waiters @ the restaurant.. Can't help but smile. :))

I need to sleep!

Yes, I need to sleep.

Slight depression

Over disappointment @ myself.

It's just one of those moments where effort doesn't pay off; one of those moments where more effort could be made but no, that didn't happen; one of those moments where everything should have been clarified but not at the first moment, causing inevitable delay; one of those moments where you try to reassure yourself that "I didn't know about this hence I couldn't have done that" but deep down you know that there is a slight chance that you should know and reassuring yourself doesn't make things any better.

I think it's worse to disappoint yourself than to have others disappointed at you. 

I guess after saying so much about the other party, perhaps I am not any better myself. Who am I to criticise when I have not done everything right too. At least, he has his expertise. Me? Neither here nor there.

Maybe I'm suddenly just dreading Friday because I do not want to see that I have disappointed her.