忙裏偷閒的第七個二月二十九

In the midst of a lifestyle change now. 

I have no idea what prompted me to wake up at 6am everyday to go for a short run / gym @ the office before work. It was just a "I miss running" thought and that thought went viral in my little head and the thought then materialised. It was purely because I knew I will never have the resolve to run after dinner (talk about bad habits!). Thus, I have been waking up at 6am everyday for the past few weeks and feeling damn proud of it! I'm glad I have managed to do it so far because I also noticed a significant reduction in my sleepiness during work hours. Highly suspect a strong correlation between the two - would anyone like to do a study on that? =P

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I also talked to my insurance agent on Monday, and apart from the panic caused by the parents' non-existent medical insurance, one topic we talked about struck a chord. He had noticed a trend in the differing leisure hobbies that "good school students" have and "neighbourhood school students". And so according to him, neighbourhood school students tend to play ball, sing karaoke, chat at the kopitiam, etc etc while good school students have more atas hobbies like reading. Though I maintained that I also do the activities that he does, it got me thinking on whether there really is such a segregation. I'm sure I read because I like to read, and it's a habit cultivated from young. Or is that the correlation with being in a "good" school? Confused much. This line between the two seemed to be demonstrated on a regular basis, the latest being my cousin maintaining that we (i.e. rest of cousins, uncles who went to fairly famous schools) do not understand him because he was an ITE student. Albeit now being an NUS undergrad, this was the sentiment that he had. Though we all refuted that as a possibility, none of us can really prove it, can we. 

So is this divide for real?

矛盾之時

今晚可能會有點輾轉難眠。過了午夜才研究課程就是活該，加上超大杯的 cocoa cappuchino，怎能早睡啊！ 

好多不同的課程，好多不同的申請資格。學習，畢竟是終身的，一輩子的。但是在尋找下一個道路的過程中，往往會有些不安，有些不舍，有些迷惑，甚至有些自我懷疑。自信心不足，擔心害怕，應該是習以爲常的吧？你會嗎？

但，這些理由不應該是讓我裹足不前的。我怕的是讓自己花一筆天數讓自己了解這路是死的。我也怕有了先例，那指望是存在的，那對比是真實的。拖了兩年的決定，今年終於是時候了嗎？我想我不該顧慮這麼多，一頭哉進去再說。這會是衝動，是勇敢，是不顧一切，還是愚蠢呢？ 

可能绕了一大圈，別人根本就不要我呢。

When parents split

I was once again reminded of the consequences to a child when the parents decided on a split. The effect is horrible and I hope to never see a child change so drastically ever again. :(

When relationships turn sour...

When any kind of relationship turns sour, you wonder whether the things held in confidence will still matter. It would have mattered at one point of time because you think that the relationship warrants that level of trust. 

With the broken relationship, trust does not matter anymore. And when that element is gone, would you still bother?

At least, I think I will. Not so much because there is trust between the pair anymore, but simply because I keep my promises and my integrity. 

And I think of all things, tact is the most important of all. Without tact, the nicest words can be misjudged and the criticisms will be even worse off. 

愛恨分明啊

At least I think when I am pissed off at someone, I don't direct my anger to other people (oh yes, I've seen such people and met such people).

That can be considered as one of my plus points la, hor? :)

That said, I smiled when a cab and a cup of Starbucks flashed across my mind. :))