Being spoiled, or no?

Been pondering over this for quite a long time.

The essential question is, am I spoiled? 

I would like to think that the answer is no. But who knows, perhaps I'm in self denial. Haha. 

It's true that I am not the youngest in my immediate family. Oh come on guys, come off it. You know that being the youngest is usually spoiled by the family. Usually. Not always. :) It's true that I have a younger brother, and I do think that he receives more attention than I do, for a various number of reasons. Rationally speaking now (instead of a week or two earlier when I was really miffed haha), I don't really have many issues for my parents to place enough attention on me. My brother, on the other hand, definitely had more issues. For one thing, my studies were always slightly better than his, and his primary school studies were definitely part of the issues. For another, I mix around too often with my friends whereas he doesn't even go out, which was definitely worrying. And also, I think his temper was worse than mine when we were both younger. So in the immediate family, I don't think I am. My dad will buy us stuff, but he can also be firm in not wasting unnecessary money. Which is of course, essential since we were not rich in the first place. Maybe part of my non-branded fondness comes from the family haha.

And then I come to the part of the extended family. I think I am.. To a certain extent. My cousins from my mum's side, most of them are older than me by 2 yrs or more.. Except for Terence, who came out much later haha. So when we used to play together, everyone of them will take care of me (just imagine a bunch of 6 to 10 yrs old with a 4yr old kid. Surely you will take better care of that 4yr old kid.) Haha. What times. I still remember I can 陷害 my cousin by pretending to want to cry so he will give in to me, coerced by the other cousins when they thought he was bullying me :] - Fyi, when I was 4 my brother was 1 so there isn't another kid smaller than me who could play and required more attention than me lols.

Kid times were fun times lah.

Then we all grew up, and of course we don't play around literally with each other anymore so I think my brother never really had a lot of fun playing times with my extended family, maybe hence he turned to the computer for all his playing needs :s The age gap between my brother and the rest of my cousins is really like 5 yrs old at least, so ya. We call each other by names, but my brother had to call them jiejie and korkor and they all call my brother didi. Obvious age gap, isn't it?

But I digress.

So we grew up, and the cousins who were much older than me got married and had kids. I remembered my first niece is now.. 10 yrs old? I can't remember the exact age, but ya. I was an auntie at like age 10 or something -.- Then of course, the new baby always receives the attention, so gradually, my batch of cousins became care-bearers for the nieces and nephews to come. No time to be actually spoiled because the niece and nephew are always more spoiled than us!

So that's the end of the relatives part. Noneed to mention my dad's side because I am the loner there.. My cousins are all like at least 8 yrs older or 8 yrs younger, so no one to really spoil me because the 8yr older cousins are never present :s Don't really mingle with the adults. I became the nanny for all the cousins there, literally nanny. Haha. Went over to my aunts' houses to take care of them de lor.

In school, I am an equal with my peers, so naturally no one to take care of, and no one to spoil me.

In work, I'm always kinda the temp aka quite young so the colleagues take care of me a lot.

In PA... It's different. When I first got in, I wasn't that old, but I wasn't that young either. Plenty of kids in PA, and I was a near transparent thing when I first got in. Maybe only the dizi people takes care of me or notices me, but then again, there's always Kaixiang who is like younger and garners more attention haha!

Then we all grew up, and the older ones left us.. Suddenly I became one of the oldest there for some reason. And because I'm the only one in my batch, there was no one to be "old" with me. Haha. Then there was this need to take care of all my members, and it was a time of totally being bullied instead of being spoiled lah. Haha far from it. 

Conclusion? 

Has the potential to be spoiled, but due to circumstances, no chance to be. Haha! Please spoil me, people!

But at least I've nv really had a hard life before.. That in itself, is a kind of blessing already :)