Had a fantastic dinner with the gals today at Swensen's. The easy banter we had is still evident, and even though we only meet up like once in how long, but we never did lose the super friendship we had and have :) I was so glad we got to meet up in the end! Even though it was after ALOT, alot of miscommunication lol. Updated each other about a lot of stuff, and also told them some stuff that I never meant to say. Lol. Don't know what I was thinking ya. But just thought I should at least tell someone bout it.. You guys are the only people to know!!!!! Then again, there are a lot of details that I think I never elaborate on, haha. Forgot to mention them =.=
But it also left me feeling very unsettled. Thought more bout it than I should.. Feeling very weirded now. I hadn't started talking bout it to expect to end up feeling this way =.= Ok lor. We shall see how it goes. Haha.
Fyi, it's really damn hard to get me to tell something/anything like that. Haha.
Something else that left a deep impression on me was that Hafi mentioned that some of her friends are married or are going to marry. Like ?! Wow. We are nearly the same age?! So we were talking bout how marriage comes at this point of time, then she said that she would like to get married 2 yrs after graduation.. Which brought me to realize that maybe this phase of life is not too far off to start thinking bout now.. BUT THEN.
Got no one how to think about anything? Haha! I told her I don't want to start thinking bout all these until I can actually see something like this happening aka there's like, at least SOMEONE. Lol. Then she actually suggested online dating!!!! I was wow-ed. Lols. That came up because I was telling her I already don't have much chances to actually meet new people.. Since I have no permanent workplace yet, and I don't go socializing around like, much at all. But I was rather surprised, because it doesn't seem like she would suggest something like that, but apparently I was totally wrong because she was totally fine with it.
My bottomline is, I would never accept something like that. Think I am a super introvert. I am ok with being very friendly and chatty msn, or online, or sms and stuff, but ultimately, if I'm gonna meet a total stranger face to face, I think I will just shut up -.- It takes just a while to become a hi bye friend to me, but to become a really close friend, it takes more than just normal interaction I guess.
Which is why I might broach this topic when I'm doing up an entry, but I will never start something like this in real life, because it's just not me to start blabbering out what I'm really thinking. This entry might as well be the closest anyone can get to my heart. Hahahaha =D
And then again, I am always very melancholic when I realize my attached friends are moving away from me because their partner takes the top priority after the status change :( It's not something I can prevent, because everyone is different, so I can only accept and try to deal with it. Apparently there's nothing much I can do if I try to still maintain the friendship the way it was but in the end the other side does nothing right? Haha. So.. If there's ever someone, the topmost criteria must be that I must have my own friendship freedom and he can never dictate who I should or should not go out with, because I have definitely as many good guy friends as good girl friends, :)
So yea, I concluded that I might be single all my life. Haha!!! But hell no, I don't want that. I want to get married. LOL. How ironic.
Looking forward to meeting again on 14th Jan :)
But it also left me feeling very unsettled. Thought more bout it than I should.. Feeling very weirded now. I hadn't started talking bout it to expect to end up feeling this way =.= Ok lor. We shall see how it goes. Haha.
Fyi, it's really damn hard to get me to tell something/anything like that. Haha.
Something else that left a deep impression on me was that Hafi mentioned that some of her friends are married or are going to marry. Like ?! Wow. We are nearly the same age?! So we were talking bout how marriage comes at this point of time, then she said that she would like to get married 2 yrs after graduation.. Which brought me to realize that maybe this phase of life is not too far off to start thinking bout now.. BUT THEN.
Got no one how to think about anything? Haha! I told her I don't want to start thinking bout all these until I can actually see something like this happening aka there's like, at least SOMEONE. Lol. Then she actually suggested online dating!!!! I was wow-ed. Lols. That came up because I was telling her I already don't have much chances to actually meet new people.. Since I have no permanent workplace yet, and I don't go socializing around like, much at all. But I was rather surprised, because it doesn't seem like she would suggest something like that, but apparently I was totally wrong because she was totally fine with it.
My bottomline is, I would never accept something like that. Think I am a super introvert. I am ok with being very friendly and chatty msn, or online, or sms and stuff, but ultimately, if I'm gonna meet a total stranger face to face, I think I will just shut up -.- It takes just a while to become a hi bye friend to me, but to become a really close friend, it takes more than just normal interaction I guess.
Which is why I might broach this topic when I'm doing up an entry, but I will never start something like this in real life, because it's just not me to start blabbering out what I'm really thinking. This entry might as well be the closest anyone can get to my heart. Hahahaha =D
And then again, I am always very melancholic when I realize my attached friends are moving away from me because their partner takes the top priority after the status change :( It's not something I can prevent, because everyone is different, so I can only accept and try to deal with it. Apparently there's nothing much I can do if I try to still maintain the friendship the way it was but in the end the other side does nothing right? Haha. So.. If there's ever someone, the topmost criteria must be that I must have my own friendship freedom and he can never dictate who I should or should not go out with, because I have definitely as many good guy friends as good girl friends, :)
So yea, I concluded that I might be single all my life. Haha!!! But hell no, I don't want that. I want to get married. LOL. How ironic.
Looking forward to meeting again on 14th Jan :)
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