MC :(

1, 2, 3, 4. Do re mi fa.


Last minute rushing of the people who refused to change their ezlink cards earlier on.. Tsk.

Bah, and a headache has been added on to the sore throat.

THE sore throat

1) I will get maximum rest tonight. And that means waking up tomorrow, because I want to, not because the alarm is ringing.

2) I will not talk for the rest of the night, to rest my throat.

3) I will take anything that mum asks me to.

4) Vapodrops is in my mouth, when usually I dead refuse to touch it.

5) I will take all my medicine faithfully at 9pm sharp, so that I will totally be in sleeping mode by 10. Because I think any more coughing my make the roof of my mouth sore too :( And swallowing is a teeny weeny bit easier when I'm not so conscious of the pain.

6) No air con for tomorrow!

7) If antibiotics still doesn't work, I'm going back to the doc's.

I don't know what else I can do to recuperate faster :( Never been this miserable in my life at a sore throat, such that eating is a too painful process to continue, and I have to mentally prepare myself for the pain each time I swallow my saliva.

This is enough!!

Secret Mission(2) part1

was damn fun because we had such a whale of a time laughing at all the silly photos. =D It also caused me to only reach home at nearly 12 yesterday :s Had wanted to take cab back at 10 plus, but stupid F1 caused a major jam around the area, and I had to detour back to take a train instead coz I couldn't get any cabs. :( The one time I was willing to spend on cab, haiz.

But I can't wait to see the look on the face. Lol.

Such a dreary week! The medicine is seriously fuddling up everything and addling my brains. Feel so lethargic everytime I take medicine, drowsy or non drowsy. 5 different kinds of medicine, 3 drowsy and 2 non drowsy. Bleah. The only good thing is that my family doctor is really cheap. Else the medicine would have healed my throat but slashed open a wound in my wallet, :s What a weekend to be, feeling like sleeping all the time. Voice is a little back, but the throat is still the same, if not worse. HAIZ!

It's a terrible feeling to be so reluctant to swallow.

Friday!

And I'm officially voiceless. Should have seen a doctor yesterday, instead of eating some rubbish macs. Sigh. I soooo learnt my lesson. I swear. I'm normally damn chatty, and being voiceless is -.- esp when I pick up the phone and cannot even speak into the phone. ...

Yakking alot online, to make up for the lack of capability for REAL conversation. Bleah.

Knocking off at 5.30 today! It makes the Friday seem even more desirable, even though it was compensated by cutting lunch hour. Heh. But the stupid clinic refused to let me take a number for the evening appointment. Zzzz. Have to call again in the evening.

Am finally back to my IP Repositry after a couple of weeks of price list checking. :)

September is ending and October is coming, and the madness begins with the start of October N levels, second week of October Shermaine's exams, 3rd week of October Terence's exams, and last week of October O levels. Woohoo! How nice. I'll be super duper occupied during the month of October. But I guess it also means more income. Which won't effectively be so, if I'm still voiceless by Sunday. OMG!

Secret mission part 2

I'm quite impressed with ourselves. Hahahahahaha. We got almost everything done in the midst of joking around! And frankly speaking, it's quite fun muahaha =D.

And that spurred on a secret mission(2)! Will start sourcing soon. Since secret missions 1 and 2 ain't too far away from each other.

Meanwhile, I totally dug my own grave today by eating mac's all the while thinking that my throat is better, when I woke up wanting to see the doctor. Oh god. Pray that I still have SOME voice tomorrow! I promise I will not be so naughty againnnnn.

五月天 夜訪吸血鬼

滿懷憂傷卻流不出淚 極度的疲憊卻不能入睡
只能夠日日夜夜 然後又日日夜夜 無盡的日日夜夜 永遠的深陷在人間

我是蝙蝠卻不能飛 困在日復一日的街 無止盡的狩獵 彷彿一種天譴
夜色就是我的披肩 日出就是我的風險 舞池裡的狂顛 是我宿命制約
上帝遺棄我們 卻又要給 黯淡的月 照亮世界 要我們無盡又無情的繁衍
看愛過的人 一一告別 做過的夢 一一凋謝 只留下我獨自殘喘的千年

無法揮舞天使的純潔 也無法擁有魔鬼的果決
只有像每個人類 貪嗔痴傻和愚昧 找尋著體溫和血 找尋著同類
滿懷憂傷卻流不出淚 極度的疲憊卻不能入睡
只能夠日日夜夜 然後又日日夜夜 無盡的日日夜夜 永遠的深陷在人間

飢餓是最好的調味 孤獨是最強的催眠 瘋狂找一雙唇 能夠當我酒杯
早就對這一切厭倦 也曾憤怒喝下聖水 卻又無助醒在 下個漫長黑夜
青春遺忘我們 卻又要給 回憶的美 就像玫瑰 要餘生流血又流淚的受虐
看鏡中的臉 慢慢枯萎 高舉的拳 漸漸粉碎 只留下了無限唏噓的相片

無法揮舞天使的純潔 也無法擁有魔鬼的果決
只有像每個人類 貪嗔痴傻和愚昧 找尋著體溫和血 找尋著同類
滿懷憂傷卻流不出淚 極度的疲憊卻不能入睡
只能夠日日夜夜 然後又日日夜夜 無盡的日日夜夜 永遠的深陷在人間

無法揮舞天使的純潔 也無法擁有魔鬼的果決
只有像每個人類 貪嗔痴傻和愚昧 找尋著體溫和血 找尋著同類
滿懷憂傷卻流不出淚 極度的疲憊卻不能入睡
只能夠日日夜夜 然後又日日夜夜 無盡的日日夜夜 永遠的深陷在人間

一個又一個孤單的千年 只能夠日日夜夜 然後又日日夜夜 無盡的日日夜夜
我不能飛

Gosh, I have no idea why I'm sooooooooo infatuated with this song.. It could be something to do with my fetish of vampires and/or mayday :s But this song is so fab, I swear! 阿信 absolutely rocked with the lyrics, and 冠佑 with the tune! Sounds like a very breathless song in ktv. 阿信 sounded abit shaky with the lyrics in the concert, but it's totally understandable once you even tried to sing this at home -.-

Woot! I'm going to dream of this song.

Secret mission part 1

ended up more gossiping than doing actual stuff. Wahaha. But it was a nice session, we did get something done, and I'm looking forward to secret mission part 2!

But for now, I need to sleep. Stupid headache. And sleeping allows me to swallow without feeling anything.

Spending weekend

Oh god, I spent 40 on saturday, and 40 today!

AND all of them were on food + movie -.- what a way to start off the new week, haha. I shall be frugal this week. VERY frugal.

Had my happy movie outing today, and amongst a not so common group of people, we actually did alright. Hahaha. SPOILERS! Movie was not the same as the book, but it's ok, coz it's expected, I didn't and wouldn't expect it to be the same. So many intimate details, but I like the last scene of the book where they met at 80 instead of 40? But I did like the fact that they actually made contact with one another in the movie,  because the book had the scene where Alba met her dad at the school excursion and called her mum but they never did get to meet :(

Tomorrow's another work day, but this week is a short week!

Random talk

Great. I'm blogging instead of studying for kanji test.

House's too quiet. And I have a sudden need for music to be played. Oh and I realize, 7th month's passed for an entire hour.

Ramblings. I turned to Mayday. Very infatuated with them after the concert.

Sparked off a conversation with Nic because ADAD refused to accept our lunch money. I'm almost embarrassed to be getting treats so often from him. The day will come when I will treat him back, let's just not hope that we end up at Rochester. Lol.

Before I forget, thanks again ADAD! This man leaves me in awe as much as my other inspiring teachers and mentors, for various reasons, and NO, free lunches is not a reason. Haha. I respect him so much, in so many aspects. He makes a very good boss :)

The whole point about the conv with Nic leads me back to thinking about my easy guilt traps. And I realize that while I'm still childish to some point, I don't use guilt traps on other people for the sake of obtaining something. For some entertainment, maybe, but never to gain anything out of it, no matter what the other party has guilt trapped me into. And it's not because I'm completely selfless, it's because my freaking conscience tells me I'll be guilty myself if I do it to others.

Guided by a caution, not because of willingness. Now that's homosapiens. All selfish, but to different extents and for different purposes. No one's ever guided by the pure goodness, there's always some hesitation because of the consequences, not because of the pure nature of the act.

And there's where our weaknesses come about. For all the people in the world, I must have the most weaknesses, where a gentle prod in most directions send me spiralling everywhere, anywhere. If only I know where the prods are coming from, and how to prevent them. Withdrawing into my shell doesn't seem to help, it seems. For all that recurring nightmare and what it means, yes it's almost accurate, except that I don't know why it stopped, because I have not overcome the problem. And I have no idea why I can listen to any song these days and feel too emotional about it. Which is why fast mayday songs are probably a very good idea right now.

Soon enough, there will be no more strength to love myself.

I wonder what's wrong with me. The silliest things affect me these days.

Mlle Janet Martin-Lau

was my tutor in French1 and French2, and she was as good a tutor as anyone can have. She saw that I was weak, and subtly helped me out during tutorials. And out of my numerous tutors and lecturers, she was the one that I chose to email back for one of my swiss assignments :D

And she's on fb! Totally rather amazing, until she asked me how's my french :s Nevertheless, I'm glad to be in contact with her, esp if I'm considering Alliance Francaise next year!

Need to curb that "i want to spend" mode

On myself, that is.

I'm itching to get a bag, thinking of changing a purse, more clothes, electronic gadgets (why isn't kindle here?), yada, yada.

And I also really wanna watch Time Traveller's Wife, and G force looks good too.

And I still have my paella and risotto AND now churros cravings.

And guess what? All these need $$$.

I need to be disciplined and only spend on the movies and maybe the food if only if it's not a 800 dollar risotto :s

Sigh.

People are flying all around me. Yuanxu and bro and Andy flew a few weeks ago, and Longhui is flying off this Friday, Andy coming back on Sat, my brother next week, Yuenling flying off on 1st Oct, and Shaun in mid October. Vera in Nov? And Peirong and Yandeng in Dec. Yep, I'd/ I'll miss all of them.

Lousy mood

I am somewhat in a very lousy mood right now.

CSQ0020149. I can very well remember the bloody tracking number for my phone already. Failed in getting my phone back after 5 whole working days. Do not promise 2-3 working days when you can't get it done.. Seriously miss my phone :( I'm sorry they are getting the brunt of it, but I just fired off emails to Nokia.

And even the library is against me, refusing me any books from the thrashy novels that I've been reading these days.

And tried to contact my ENTIRE family via handphones and home phones and resulting in no one picking up. I was even starting to get a little worried until my aunt called, and my dad picked up. He was engrossed in a movie and didn't hear the 6 missed calls from handphone, 2 missed calls from home phone. And mum was asleep.

And just kena conned by some boy with a not-very-real sob story, but I just handed over the money anyway, because I was tired and hungry and a thought behind was nagging what if the story's real. But it's been confirmed that it's a fluke, and I forever fall into these kind of soft traps. Never ever learn my lesson.

And just realized that I have no way of contacting my students tmr coz I don't have their numbers........................................

What a day.. And no, I will not get my laptop because "why are you getting a laptop when yours is not spoiled, and your brother is getting a laptop next year so why need so many laptops at home?"

Cold cold friday

On a friday, the air conditioner performed its usual abilities.

This has been the temperature for about a couple of weeks, and the lowest so far.

But no, it's not contented by just 19.5 degrees Celsius. It has to outdo itself, SOMEHOW.

And it really has outdone itself. 19 degrees Celsius.

Well done.. Frostbite soon man.

Happily using my new laptop+pseudo desktop-but-actually-is-extended-desktop. Haha.

Where is your conscience?!

God.

I was feeling so sorry for you a few weeks ago. Suddenly I realize, you might not have felt so sorry for yourself after all. I just had to hope that you weren't secretly rejoicing instead.

Barely a few weeks after you took over the business, you have to sack him off. Is he that irritable, that within such a short period you can't even tolerate him? And they say, next up there are more people because YOU don't like our this side of the family.

Wth.. Steaming mad.