March is over!!!

Never been more glad that March is finally out of the way. A brand new month awaits, with more things and hopefully more stuff to do. Rather an avalanche, than still water!

Thinking if I should take up Junwei's dad's offer. I wonder if I have the capacity to deal with one more student. That said, the fact that I promised some time ago mattered more than the amount of $$ I will get. I've already been doing charity cases as it is, hahaha. Hmmm.. I do need to make sure that my work-life-family balance will not be upset by taking on another student.. Fine, fine, it was already tilted in the first place :s

Been thinking alot these days. Too much, in fact. It's time to be wary and not believe everything at face value. Welcome to the world. The sooner I get this into my head, the better off I'll be.

That said, I had a good time laughing my feet off at Wimpy Kid yesterday. Too plotless, too lame, but yes, just funny!! And Marilyn: I'm not ashamed to let the world know I wanted to watch this, lol!! I have all 4 books in fact >.< I just feel that everyone needs a brainless funny movie once in a while. One that doesn't require any thinking and just silly laughter all the way. And oh, the mom is so pretty..

Thursday is the last workday of the week woohoo~! Time to get my computer over the weekend.. I seriously need a laptop! Anyone wanna recommend me anything??

A little time

Before the paper comes back and the workshop later. 

Forgot to bring my specs..... Eye feeling naked and exposed. Hahaha. 

Should should go badger Vince for the paper soon!

Squint squint away.

Lawyers and law!

Consecutively watched 2 dramas with lawyers as main leads. Okay it didn't help that they were ex F4. Hahahaha. Both were good shows in their own rights and of course left me reeling with the OSTs :D

Primer course was conducted by lawyers - very engaging, interacting, lawyers. Of course, they left me feeling that I'll lose an argument with them in NO TIME.  If I ever manage to start one, that is. ...

Made a lawyer friend in the course! 

I'm getting too acquainted with law and lawyers these few days. After the course, am suddenly very very interested in watching a court case. Wanna see how they grill people and find loopholes and banter off in their very (supposedly) proficient language and mannerism! 

The course is interesting after all.

But the two days also made me realise whilst some people like to go for the conclusion, and ignore the process. As long as whatever is done. And that, is already a different stand from me for I think the process is so much more important than the conclusion. 

2 day course

Throwing boss all alone in office for the next 2 days. Let's pray that the course isn't too boring and that I won't be too distracted.. Hahaha. 

And let's hope that I feel better tmr. Being sick and having to attend a 600+ bucks course is NOT funny :\

Bleah. Let's hope today ends up better than yesterday, where

1) The place for lunch will actually be open

2) I don't have to slp at 3 and wake up at 6

3) There's noneed to stay till 8.30 and be the last person to leave office
4) My nose will start to take in air?!?!

5) My laptop actually will start up.. 

I want my laptop stuff :(

I need...

1) Bio-ing the flats @ Crocs - even though I once said I'll never buy anything from Crocs. ROFL.

2) Multiple USB ports to complement my oh-so-pathetic IBM X200 with 2 ports, one of which must be for my firefox :\

3) Visor!

4) Maybe a new mouse, or should I wait till I get a new laptop? My mouse is acting all funny on me.. :(

5) SLEEP.

The strong will survive anything.

I get it.

The shell is somewhat getting thicker and thicker and thicker and thicker. And that is the consequence of trying not to take everything too seriously. For when I'm joking, I'm displaying no faith that the other party will keep his/her promise. And hence if I don't take anything seriously, it doesn't matter whether in the end I get the promise or not. And thus I am safe in my own shell. Although most of the times the shell is still not thick enough and needles can still poke through.

And the day this shell is broken is the day I may be truly hurt, but that day is a long time away, I should think.

And it took me 24 years to understand it myself, ahaha. What a joke! I'm too geng. And woe befall you if you should ask what happened (:

And I need to work work work work work! Having no priorities already.

Spur of the moment

Packed up my room yesterday and satisfied that it's sufficiently tidy, though I seriously want to find another day to clear up the cupboard. 

Am quite tempted to go back and register at JCS, seeing the amount of work that I've put in over the years. But, that would be silly now and I would just regret it in the future (again).

Am also quite bothered by how our working styles are so different we are totally on parallel paths, not to cross each other. How to be in sync with each other if we cannot agree on each others' differences?

Weekend starts early!!!

Weekend starts today. (: Took leave for tomorrow to sleep in and also to pack up my warzone room. It's getting so messy I can't even find a place to put anything.. Messy me.

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I wonder if one really knows the meaning of a relationship. All forms of relationships need working on. And a lot of give and take. Including friendship. If one side continuously gives and one side continuously takes.. This system is bound for failure sooner or later. It's a matter of time, tolerance and character.

Too busy this week

I've only sat at my desk for half a day this week, I think. Too busy doing alot of stuff. But at least CAS Day is over. Good or bad, tomorrow I'll have the results. But I would think it's rather unpolished. 

And in the end I don't even feel like updating. All I wanna say was,

RIP, Mr Moo. It's been a legacy that you left behind.

And once again I wonder what is wrong with 2010.

12 March 2010

was so tiring =.=

Almost spent the entire day not at my desk, but either talking to officers, listening to grouches, or preparing for Tuesday. Was pleasantly surprised that boss remembered my birthday until he reminded me that he has a pda phone.. :\ Thank god ADAD didn't mention the fb msg too, I might have died of embarrassment if he did!! Something tells me he hasn't seen it yet... Haha. 

The second part of the day after work was spent at home, cutting cake, and then going out for dinner and zi char is always nice even though I wasn't hungry the entire day after Sushi Tei lunch + dark mocha :|

Chilling out at Timbre was a surprise when I met Mel! And omg she had all the funny sms-es and expressions which made me laughed inadvertently all the time. But glad that I'm gonna see them all on Sunday though Vien can't make it.

Am most surprised at the phone call at about 12nn. Kudos to never forgetting my birthday (even though we've lost contact for.. years?! and that I can't quite remember his birthday) (: It left a smile on my face the entire day.

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Thought of heading to Starbucks, but I think I had enough of chocolaty stuff for the moment.. Until at least my ulcer heals :\

And hence I'm 24~

24 is just another age, and when you're with younger people all the time, getting older is just another routine. I'm been fine with getting older since eons ago, esp when the people in office are all older than me now. I feel like a baby :o Older? So be it, except that I spent the first few minutes of my yr 24 on earth wondering whyyyy on earth the bus was moving so slow..

Dinner with the "union" was good, esp since I haven't met up with them for so long! And the waiter was really funny :\ 

But what impacted me the entire night was a single sentence: she's my staff. 

It gives me a sense of belonging and I'm really proud to be working under him, and I love my work and being in my unit and section and division even though I may be brainwashed (:

沒事就好

Everything looks fine. 沒事就好。 Not sure if the Saturday dinner will still be on, though.

Dead tired. Gonna conk out.. And be prepared to do alot within a few hours tomorrow.

Professional Sharing (1)!

The jitters got over me, but at least it's all over wahahaha. Interesting presentations with interesting ideas, and some are just downright funny i.e. suan king. It does allow us to know more about one another, and therefore it was a good few hrs spent. (:

Updated my calendar for March, and oh my more and more things to come in. I guess this is the real meaning of "a birthday is just another workday" with one meeting and a dry run to conduct. :\

Time to start on the newsletter before boss asks me for it -.-

COS debate, please end soon so that we may all go off!! I have a far ulu distance to go leh.

OMG

Click on the above, if you like. But it's extremely gossipy.

If it's true, that is.

It just leads me to wonder, how for someone with such a positive image and all, with all the themes about family, home, yada yada, will end up doing something like that too. 

It's probably unfair to say all the guys are the same, but oh well evidence is showing the contrary day by day.

It's just this feeling of insecurity that whoever females may end up with, how good the guy can be, in the end all can be changed and that nothing's definite. I guess the feeling's more deeply invoked in me because I'm especially gullible. That even though I may trust someone fully but with time, no one can say what will happen.

Why else would the proportion of guys having extramarital affairs always end up being higher than females'?

Thank you peeps!

Yuxin: You know, I've organised enough birthdays to realise that it was a dual celebration and that there was a cake coming. HAHA.

Nevertheless, I seriously thought they were talking about serious stuff at the other side instead of trying to hide the cake =.= But thank you peeps and happy birthday to the belated bday boy! (: And I bullied him into taking my laptop somemore!! *reflects* hahaha.

As usual, nothing short of fun and laughter esp towards the end on the car ride where Clement asked why THAT building was so familiar and how Yiwen tried to tease Liping when I told her she has a low tolerance for funny stuff :s

Not to mention that very amazing rice! I swear I will go back to eat it someday. Hahaha.

And that CT got the very power packed phone that my boss has, with the processor that's faster than my LAPTOP.. Zzzz. Why doesn't MS Office 2010 come out like NOW NOW NOW so that I can get a new laptop!!! It was fun playing the phone though :D

Thank you peeps again!

A little evil!

Ordered dark mocha @ Starbucks, and I think they gave me a mocha instead. The normal me might have just let it go, but for some reason today I went to get it changed. After all, dark mocha does cost more, and I think I'm a little tired to be a little grouchy.. Not used to mocha taste anymore.. Muahahaha.

Ate ourselves silly at the porridge buffet and then headed for ExCEL fest just now. Some of the schools are really quite intriguing. BUT still no idea for the newsletter =.=

Jiayou! I must finish what I set out to do today.

Squint, squint, squint

Life's no fun when you have to squint to look at things. And I've concluded that air con is probably the catalyst. A rest from my specs also told me bad news: I can no longer read things clearly from either eye. So much for wearing specs to regulate the condition of the eye.. I rather I have far sighted vision in one. At least I can still see the signage from a distance.

Constant pain for 3 whole days. Dammit. It's hard to concentrate on anything when all you wanna do is to stop that damn stinging which was supposed to stop over a year ago?!?!

Squinting so much I'm getting sleepy. On my bed typing, half wishing that I haven't on the computer.

And it doesn't help that D dropped a bomb today and I forgot to get the necessary info to reframe the paper.  Reframing it is just so difficult and he makes it sound so easy. Argh. It doesn't help that next week is cramped until I want to take leave also cannot. Urgh, and he irked me to no end today. How, Nic, how? I've tried to be nice the past week =.= I can't help but feel that he has a very competitive edge, and that makes me nervous.

Can't help but wonder why there are such species around. Or is it me who's weird. Everyone else seems to go fine except for me. Then again, they don't have as close an interaction as I did, and knowing me, I take everything very personally. But god, how to continue on???????

Law degree? My foot la. 

Maybe, just maybe,

It's time for a revisit back to SNEC. 

It shouldn't be this way, it really shouldn't be.

Bad bad year.

It's not a good lunar year to start off with. 

Extremely bad, in fact. One bad news after another. 

All I hope for, is everyone to be fine.

There's nothing to do for anyone anyway, but to pray and hope that everything will be fine..

Concurrent till luan ah!

I need ideas on what to write for the next newsletter..

Need to make sense of CAS Day stuff, finalise everything. It's so last min that I'm panicking!

Need to make sure I know how to use sharepoint.

Need to finish my workshop presentation slides.

There's still Professional Sharing slides to do.

Meanwhile, realising that I've neglected Edumall's blog entries..

Sigh.

For the first time I think I wish for March to be over very very soon.

ISFJ

We are lucky that Protectors make up as much as ten percent the population, because their primary interest is in the safety and security of those they care about - their family, their circle of friends, their students, their patients, their boss, their fellow-workers, or their employees. Protectors have an extraordinary sense of loyalty and responsibility in their makeup, and seem fulfilled in the degree they can shield others from the dirt and dangers of the world. Speculating and experimenting do not intrigue Protectors, who prefer to make do with time-honored and time-tested products and procedures rather than change to new. At work Protectors are seldom happy in situations where the rules are constantly changing, or where long-established ways of doing things are not respected. For their part, Protectors value tradition, both in the culture and in their family. Protectors believe deeply in the stability of social ranking conferred by birth, titles, offices, and credentials. And they cherish family history and enjoy caring for family property, from houses to heirlooms. 

Wanting to be of service to others, Protectors find great satisfaction in assisting the downtrodden, and can deal with disability and neediness in others better than any other type. They are not as outgoing and talkative as the Provider Guardians [ESFJs], and their shyness is often misjudged as stiffness, even coldness, when in truth Protectors are warm-hearted and sympathetic, giving happily of themselves to those in need. 

Their reserve ought really to be seen as an expression of their sincerity and seriousness of purpose. The most diligent of all the types, Protectors are willing to work long, hard hours quietly doing all the thankless jobs that others manage to avoid. Protectors are quite happy working alone; in fact, in positions of authority they may try to do everything themselves rather than direct others to get the job done. Thoroughness and frugality are also virtues for them. When Protectors undertake a task, they will complete it if humanly possible. They also know better than any other type the value of a dollar, and they abhor the squandering or misuse of money. To save, to put something aside against an unpredictable future, to prepare for emergencies-these are actions near and dear to the Protector's heart. For all these reasons, Protectors are frequently overworked, just as they are frequently misunderstood and undervalued. Their contributions, and also their economies, are often taken for granted, and they rarely get the gratitude they deserve. 

Mother Teresa, George H.W. Bush, Jimmy Stewart, and Tsar Nicholas II are examples of Protector Guardian style. 

A full description of the Protector and Guardian is in People Patterns or Please Understand Me II

The demise of the shoes

Poor shoes have only stayed in my hse for 2 months. :(

It makes me tempted to get those croc checkered shoes even though I've never liked croc shoes and they are ridiculously expensive. Oh well. Does price = quality?

I am left with heels to wear!! Omg, seriously not healthy.

I think I can buy toto/4D..

Sure strike one. Zhiqin talked to me!!

And the last time that happened, I think was at least a few years ago. I wouldn't even eliminate the possibility of 5-6 years ago, before I entered uni =.= But I suppose copyright sounded rather interesting/familiar to him and hence it sparked off the conversation. Hahaha. 

Gotta sleep early. 2 tuition lessons straight in a row and I foresee that the next few days will be even more intensive tuition.. To tutors and tutees alike. Hahaha.

Movies.. Movies.. Movies..

True Legend.. 大兵小将.. Summer Wars.. Alice in Wonderland..

And why is Summer Wars not showing in GV?!?!

p.s. or has the movie started?!?

This is a lousy day.

Missed the early bus and hence the early train to work - no seats. Missed the rainbow after seeing the Friendster. Missed the Tampines train stop and slept all the way to Pasir Ris. Missed the dumb no.3 bus stop and had to walk one bus stop back.. Urgh. Today should just end soon.

Maybe I should stop being so preoccupied and start concentrating instead. Miss the bus stop, indeed.

I was clearing my yahoo mail this morning and I saw an update from Friendster (which I don't log into now, btw). Then I saw an update, and I got stunned for a little while. Then I proceeded to log in..

And I spent a fair bit of time reading the updates, and I realized that there has been constant updates, perhaps I just didn't see anything from email updates the last time. But I suppose this is what you call a legacy.. Small scale one, but nonetheless. To have people still thinking of you, to garner constant updates on an account which already belongs to no one..

I think my only immediate response was, will it happen to me if I die one day?

I'm not being suicidal, fyi. It's just an auto thought.. Swarmed with memories for a while.