Major revamp

Over a couple of things, including the blog as well as updating Friendster (?!?!) I know, it's like, is Friendster even still existent?! But well, I log in for certain reasons. Can't believe I did what I just did, but let's see what happens and if I will eventually get what I want.

Apparently, all these weren't in my mind when I made up my mind over at ah ma hse to come back and study french! And it's now 2.14am. Congratulations. I guess I needed to clear my mind and this kind of nonsensical stuff normally does work in helping the former!

I think the level of innate stress is piling up and whilst I'm glad to have the chance to learn to be more resilient, another part of me is freaking out at the thought of it all and the level of expectations, and the possibility of mismatch of expectations. I would think it's a rather good thing that the workplace is far. Else I might be tempted to be holed up @ the workstation 24/7 just to finish reading ALL the files. Oh man. But it's ok. What does not kill me, makes me stronger. 

And in a flash, March is ending and I guess it's becoming a reality that I'm pushing this year's plans to next yr, and next yr's plans to the year after. I can't say if I'm silly or what, but that's the way I am and that's the way I'll be, don't think I'll be changing anytime soon. I didn't even have the time to stop and think about it the entire month. Or maybe subconsciously I'm really lazy, or I'm really scared. But that's that, for now. Chapter closed.

And whilst one path seems very clear, the rest are all still hazy and I don't wanna think about it and I don't care at least for the time being. Let it come should it come and if it happens, it happens.