It has been getting harder and harder

In aspects more than 1, I have to admit.

Some things I know I should not be feeling this way; but I can't help it. Some I know I should not have reacted that way; but I can't help it. Some things I know are out of my control; but I still want to do it.

And some things I know I should be doing, but procrastinating.

And when all comes together, I'm in a downright terrible mood right now.