In an ideal world, this would be perfect

I shouldn't have to be so stressed over it. In an ideal world, that is. I've made caveats for it and really, ideally, the stress shouldn't be there.

But it is, and even though I shouldn't be subjected to it, I am. And affected I am, too.

And so I am upset because I don't want anything to change but in reality it has and will and I will just have to manage it as it comes.