That alienation

You know, I suppose I should be used to it by now, but, somehow deep down it does still affect me.

I understood that by accepting the post, it meant that I wouldn't be able to share everything with everyone, and that everyone will have reservations about sharing anything with me. That, I understood, and I was ok.

Until I wasn't. 

It kind of sucks to want to organise something only to have everyone say ok in front of you and talk otherwise behind your back. I appreciate honest comments right at the start, tyvm. It's alright if you don't want to join, but at least have the decency to reply to my invite or tell me to my face right. 

Sigh.

On the bright side.. At least work is coming together.

And I have a someone who's constantly trying to make me very happy :)