4 months on

 Work is still confusing (uh oh and I only gave myself 6 months to pick everything up);

Buddy is leaving; and

Boss is leaving!!

Ohmytian. The institutional knowledge for what I mostly do now is going away with buddy surely, oh my tian. 

Oh and I also got covid hahaha. The "not if but when" days are finally over. Glad to be one of those with minor symptoms, have heard of folks whose throats are so sore they couldn't eat and those who just slept for a few days straight. Also glad it happened after CNY, else, would most certainly have missed much fun!

It also opens a window for test-free travelling! Time to look at countries and check those expiring-and-extended-and-expiring-again-and-extended-again miles. 

Merry post-Christmas and hopefully not 2020 too

Excellent weekend! 

There weren't any concrete plans for Christmas this year because of the restrictions (therefore lazy to organise anything). The man booked us a Xmas eve high tea at Ocean restaurant though, and off we went! It was awesome and we got to meet friend who was working at RWS for a chat too, so, awesome. 

And because the kids were bugging us about swimming and coming over, I invited my uncle over for Christmas lunch. That was a frantic morning/afternoon as we paid respects to my fil and then picked up the family, came back and cooked while they swam heh. And the boy really apparently loved mac and cheese!

Ended Christmas day with bringing the naughty-py (well Treppy but he keeps biting me so I'm changing his name) to the park for his daily walk! Since I've been around dogs my entire life, I was comfortable doing that (but I think the man was visibly nervous... "got ppl!" "careful, got bike" -_-) 

Started boxing day with a puzzle hunt at Chinatown! Had quite a good time trying to figure out the puzzles. And did hair treatment after that. So that concluded the weekend. Heh heh. Hopefully the same fun weekend for this week as we welcome 2022! (Please leh don't let it be another covid year again leh)

1 month since the last day at MOE

And I am sleeping 7 hrs every day (most of the days anyway) which is a huge improvement from 2 months ago (roughly 5-6 on average I think), I feel much more energetic (like I get up at 7.45am for my 8.30am work time instead of waking up at 8.20am for 8am work time), I struggle with my inner self NOT to run back to my laptop after dinner or on weekends, instead, to take my time to absorb what the team is doing.

The bit about running back to the computer is the really relieving part, along with the disappearance of "I need to spend time to work later, can only have lunch outside and come back to work" thoughts. Those were super bad, because whenever we spent a longer time outside I would be thinking of the work lying at home, and even if I were outside I couldn't enjoy myself at all. 

And I have time to spend with the man again! (so much so that he's complaining about being very tired, cuz no more time to nap during weekend hahahahahahah)

But it is nice to finally get time to do what I want... exercise (wah lau the weight gain), bake, etc.... Paid an exorbitant amount of money to get the man a bike and yay... weekly cycling now (though the me-time for cycling is now traded off, lol).

Work wise it is very exciting and I only hope to contribute much faster, sooner, once I get the hang of stuff. Policy making at the national level is daunting!

P.S. Not so many questions on remaining work since I left MOE. I really worried for nothing, and perhaps I really should have left earlier.

Countdown 1.5 months to bye bye MOE

 Can't believe it's been 2 months since my update to bosses and theroetically the status has not changed. The inefficiency of it all... But once it's official, I wonder how many people I will shock.

Am really looking forward to the new beginning, while currently stuck in my continuous love-hate relationship for RMS. It's practically my dream project since I joined, but the amount of angst it's given me... 

Ultimately I pin the root cause on his leaving + no replacement who can talk with me at the same level on this project + basically no one else who understands systems well in the team. Thankfully the IT folks are more than capable..... Would have died a million times if not for them. #thankful

Pensive morning

I always choose the worst days to be distracted. Supposed to have a ton of things done this morning, and here I am... blogging.

Looking at some past emails this morning, and it struck me how much I've experienced and grown in MOE. Definitely won't miss the bad bits but I half suspect that I may tear a little on my last day (but still, please please let the transfer go through). 

And I hope V sees past the shock and me past the frustration, and that I will be able to chat with my mentor again as per normal. It really affects me that he is semi ignoring me..

And most memorable of all, the forgiven but not forgotten saga. Haiz. 

I hope a new beginning will truly happen for me this coming October. 

The annual milestone celebration post~

Posting it the lazy way again! But at least we celebrated all our milestones properly this year (just before P2HA, oops). 

Since we can't travel... I've invested a significant sum of money into the Singapore economy.  

I'm so tired, so so tired

My dream system implementation has turned out to be the thing that makes me loathe work now. I'm like a one-man team.... It feels very tiring to be in charge of a 3mil system all by myself. The whole design, if screwed up, is on me alone. 

There's no end in sight, at least, until I decide to put an end to it myself. And if no action is taken by the lao bans, it will only go to show that they think I will just continue slogging for them even without any mitigating actions. And that will not happen anymore. Enough is enough. 

Boring celebrations this year so I shall just throw in a truckload of photos just cuz.

 

I should start looking for a new job

It's gotten to the point where I googled about depression symptoms this morning.

I've been thinking when was the last time I didn't work on a weekend, that's probably.. the election weekend. And I cannot even remember when was the last time I didn't work on a weeknight. 

It really doesn't help that said equal (or more than that) is actually leaving in a week's time. I have to take over all the work in the meantime, I lose an extra pair of eyes to look at my issues, and I basically lose a work friend. 

To top it off, there are so many issues that I have to follow up with on team management. I may have neglected my leadership duties for the past few months but that's because of the work damnit. Find someone to take over the work and let me concentrate on leading if that's the case. But no, we are always the ones who don't seem to be overworked so just 1 AD and 2 managers are perfectly fine (and now down to 1). 

I haven't really smiled this week, and have had random bouts of mini-tearing. I really don't know how long more I can last like that. Poor husband's been trying to perk me up :(

I cannot see any end to this.